The thoughts of the past still lingers on my mind.The hurts are still there but I will never refuse to forgive..

Today, I feel as usually absent-minded..i forgot what is the number on my Chikka-PC account, locked the door (without having any key to keep) and forgot to bring my hat, forgot what are my subject numbers during the first semester...etc.etc.etc.

It's really hard when you do such stupid things..you give, you take and you get lost.One just has to forgive himself everyday of his life...


Lord,

I don't know what is with my life right now..but I'm asking You,pleading to you -stay in my life and never leave me.! I used to feel like Hosea's wife... Lord, I hate my old life!

Please ! have mercy!

Just as I finished eating dinner, I heard the news about the Glorietta explosion . 8 people died and 89 were said to be injured.

A WAKE UP CALL.tsk.tsk.

Imagine? a person dies inside a mall? Malls are supposed to be a place where people meet,shop, eat and enjoy. It is a place where people go,all dressed up.

Before dinner, my uncle found a pamphlet of election propaganda, destroying every candidate for barangay captain,except one. Mama and I commented that the author of that propaganda is evil...really evil. I want to get angry and even curse the cheapness of these kind of people.. I am angry with the responsible people with the Glorietta explosion ( though there was no concrete evidence yet that it was a bombing).

But the words VENGEANCE-IS-MINE-SAYS-THE-LORD reminded me of how empty I am, how little I have to do some big thing with the incidents happening around.. All I have done was whisper a prayer to God to comfort the loved ones of those who died and the ones injured, that healing would come to to them , and if there was a believer who is there,he/she would reach out to others. I texted my friend jazzy to pray too...

I am reminded of how short life is,I may be typing this blog right now and never wake up tomorrow..Nobody knows,nobody except God.

Minutes ago, I browsed on John Piper's article/sermon at www.desiringgod.org entitled

God's Wrath: "Vengeance Is Mine, I Will Repay," Says the Lord

It woke me up again!
To a deeper level of desiring God, desiring not to store up sins in me that I may never face God's wrath.He is faith and JUST,according to Piper "God’s anger is never out of the control of his wisdom and righteousness, and his wrath is never cool or indifferent, but is always a wisely directed fury. The wrath of God is never less than a perfect judicial decree, but is always more than a perfect judicial decree because it is always full of right and fitting fury."

Lord, forgive me! do not let my heart be complacent..never!
let me wait for you with fear and trembling!

Philippians 2:12 (New International Version)

Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling,

please read john piper's article at desiringgod.org with the article I mentioned above.

sa mga nilalang na ipinanganak sa 1980's, siguro di nyo na maaapreciate ang kantang ito...assuming na mga nasa 20's na kayo(well in fact 20's na talaga)..

naging hit ang kantang ito sa rehab center na pinag vovolunteeran ko (rehab center ng mga special or school nalang kung baga..) nang kinanta ko ito sa isang kebigan kong volunteer na heart broken..

hindi ko alam ang buong lyrics ng kantang yan..."bakit ako mahihiya..." paulit-ulit kong kinakanta ito para sa kebigan ko pinagsakluban ng buong palengke(itago natin siya sa pangalang KATTY CORILLA)..

after a week or two...narinig ko ang isang bersyon ng kantang ito sa SPED teacher namin.."bakit ako ay mataba?" yan! yan ang bersyon nya...

kinakanta nya ito tuwing naliligo o nag si cr...according to her.

tapos yun! naging hit na naman ang kanta!

Didith Reyes...salamat sa kantang ito..at maraming buhay ang nabago...salamat....
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